As I’ve noticed several recent views of my first post: this has piqued my interest as to how I intended my blog to develop and its six month journey since.
I’ve gotten braver since the beginning: I had no intention of letting my friends and family in. My blog was going to be totally anonymous. Then, one by one I sent out links to my posts and eventually posted my links to my facebook account, so much for anonymity.
My blog was going to be anonymous: It was going to be a save place where I could say what I pleased and be totally revealing as one would in a diary without concern that I would hurt anyones feelings. I wanted to do this because I feel my struggles and experiences as a woman and mother are universal. I’ve been told that I have an interesting perspective that others could relate to and through my writings gain insight.
As my audience expanded: With my subjects as my readers I’ve tip-toed through my experiences, dancing around the issues to spare feelings while stifling my own. The place I created for a voice that yearned to be heard became obscured. Falling short of my original intentions I sit here with my fingers to the keys feeling weak instead of brave. My posts have waned as have my stats while I dismiss topic after topic sparing feelings. Even as I write this I wonder…
Would this be considered blogger suicide?